Can you identify with this? Dad’s can you identify with this?
What is the breaking point that you know when its time for a time out for you? What does your timeout look like?
For me today is one of those days. I woke up this morning wanting to just lay around, watch HGTV, DVR and nap. But as I looked around the house I knew I can’t lay around and waste the day. I had laundry to fold and wash more. I needed to go to the grocery and do some meal prep. I knew my time frame was limited as we had to get to a girl scout meeting today at pm. So I chose to lay around until pm. I went to fold the 2 loads of laundry that was sitting all week. I put the sheets from all the beds into wash and left for girl scouts.
I had 1.5 hours to do some things for my home based while sitting at the library during her meeting. I got 2 things accomplished from that list and I felt good. I grabbed dinner (not fast food technically) and home I went. I ran to the store to grab a few things to get us by until Monday/Tuesday when I can meal prep for the week. Then I made brownies for my amazing husband per his request. I also snuck in making breakfast mini omelettes for the week. I come upstairs to see what is going on with laundry and it wasn’t where I thought it should be and I lost it. Yes my husband took the wrath in a short and sweet snarky comment I made. So then I start helping make the bed in my daughters bed and my back was hurting so I couldn’t do it and she wasn’t doing it as fast as I liked and I snipped at her. At that point I removed myself from all and here I sit in time out. I am blogging about it cause I feel like that is my therapy on how to NOT do this again. Now it didn’t take me long to figure out what I did wrong and how to TRY not to do it again.
The result was I procrastinated all day, fell behind and then it became everyone’s fault. I know it was my fault too but I was snipping at everyone around me.
Now I am about to cut up brownies for my family and give the peace offering.
I went to bed last night after a long weekend of working my 9-5 since it was quarter end and I was exhausted. Our daughter text me from her room at 1:21am saying the dog was barking. I listened I heard nothing and then she replied she stopped. Great now I am wide awake as I have had a good 2-3 hours of sleep. I get up use the bathroom and crawl back into bed and look at Face Book. I scroll for about 2 mins and one of the groups I belong to is a Vegas board and someone had posted 2 mins prior active shooter at Mandalay Bay. I was like “lord Jesus, lil punks”. Then 5 mins later someone posts active shooter at Luxor. It continued for about 15 mins as it went up strip with the casinos finally ending at Harrah’s. I jumped on the Police scanner and started to listen and found out it was 1 shooter and they were about to storm his 32nd floor room. There were no other casinos involved just MB and the concert venue below.
I watched news channels FB Live, the police scanner became jumbled so I stopped listening. I finally laid back down at 3:30 said a silent prayer and went back to sleep. I woke up at 5:30 and my husband didn’t know yet. When he got back in bed I told him. At that point more new channels were live and I started listening again. I couldn’t wrap my head around it yet and all I wanted to know was it in fact terrorism on MY Happy Place? How could it be? Next to Disneyland/world this is the happiest place on earth for ADULTS. Why would someone ruin that persona? I will not let this savage ruin my love of the city or my memories.
Now we are about 14 hours after the worst mass shooting in US history and I still don’t understand why. I will wait to see what the investigators figure out from his home, his roommate when she returns to the country and so forth.
My prayers and love to the families, friends and fellow concert goers that are now living with this for the rest of their lives. Loss of a loved one, the images of seeing people gunned down from an unknown source right in front of you. I pray they all seek help and assistance the resources are there when YOU are ready.